« deeply rooted »

well, after exactly two months, it turns out mckenna is still alive. the good part about that is this is the first time in a while i can confidently say that’s a good thing

every one of my last few posts has had a short apology about my absence or some complaint about schedules and my busy life, but i wont bore you with one of those. this time i don’t really have an excuse because i only became busy again very recently and i’ve been getting better at managing my time.

but i will say that the past few months have been the most difficult in my life. i’ll spare you the details, but probably the past three or four months before new year i’ve been stressed, lonely, depressed, and all sorts of other negative things due to some things that happened in my life.

i’m not going to lie, it’s been miserable. but recently, i’ve also made some really incredible and real friends that build me up in the best ways. i’m starting to mature more and, yes, i’m becoming a more private person but it’s not a bad thing this time. it’s me realizing opening up to every person that shows you slight comfort isn’t always the best idea.

i guess i’m trying to say i’ve been gone again, but this time is wasn’t because i was too lazy to post, i didn’t think trying to write something for people to enjoy was the best idea with the things i was going through, and along with that i was self conscious about a lot of things and didn’t want to put myself through more stress.

but i’m here, and i’m growing, and 2019 has been off to one of the best starts i can imagine. i’m happy, life is getting better, and for the first time in a while i look forward to each new day.

and i’m going to try my hardest to post more here :)

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enough chit chat, now for the real reason i’m here. MY OLDER SISTER STARTED A BLOG. i’m so excited for her to be doing this, and i think she’s going to really enjoy blogging and along with that the community :) (you all are literally the best).

laurianna is one of the strongest, most inspiring people i’ve ever met and i really am blessed to have her as an older sister and someone to look up to.

laurianna started her blog, called deeply rooted, to just share about her life, both the ups and downs, and the things God is sharing with her through her everyday life in hopes to spread encouragement and hope to people around her.

i decided to talk about this on my blog in hopes you all would possibly be up to sharing some love on her new platform cause shes been pretty excited :)

so that’s all for now, just a quick little life update and advertisement ;)

i hope everyone’s 2019 has been swell so far. and if it hasn’t, don’t worry, there’s still another 356 days left for it to turn around, and i really hope it does. love you all



« 200 follower q&a ft. random pictures »

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i’ve come to the conclusion that schedules of any kind whatsoever do not agree with me and i’m horrible at keeping with them :)

i feel so bad for being so inactive. it weird, whenever i think about writing a post it just doesn’t appeal to me, but when i finally decide to do it i have lots of fun.

idk what i’m saying, that’s very clearly just called lack of motivation so go me.

anywhooooooo, either way, i’m here! that’s…a good thing. i think. idk, i’m proud of me for showing up so SELF LOVE IF ANYTHING.

TODAY i finally decided to write my post for 200 followers. i had 0 ideas at first and then just decided to do a q&a. usually those scare me though, because no one actually leaves me questions so i’m just all lonely :’)

actually that’s false. i’ll actually put at the end of a random post, “drop me questions and i’ll do a q&a!” but then i totally forget what post that was because it was so random and i never find it again soooooo.

I KEEP GETTING SIDETRACKED BUT IT’S FINE. pretty much i’m going to be answering the questions you guys asked me, and along with that just dumping some random pictures i took at the pet store the other day. (there might be ones that aren’t from the pet store if i don’t have enough. but i’m not sure, i haven’t written the post yet).

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grace | gracefully in the moment’s questions:

-what’s your favorite food?
okay so idk how to answer this questions sometimes cause there’s lots of different categories?? like breakfast food? regular food? candy? dessert? IDK MAN.
i’m just gonna say mac and cheese of most kinds. but i don’t like all kinds either. i made this questions way too complicated i’m sorry.

-what’s youre favorite book of the bible?
probably proverbs or psalms. psalms you can find almost anything and i love flipping to random pages and reading verses. proverbs is full of so much wisdom.

-tea or coffee?
another hard one cause i almost said COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE but i’ve been drinking lots of hot tea recently. is both a valid answer??

-books or movies?
i just started reading more again lately and i love it, don’t get me wrong. but for me, i’m a visual person so i enjoy watching movies a lot. the only exception is when it’s a movie written after a book and they did a horrible job. then it drives me crazy.

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arabella | a happily ella after’s questions:

-what’s your favorite shop?
okay i’m not quite sure if you mean store or shop, but if we’re going with shop, i would say the small business called new creations where i live. it’s run by a couple in our church, and they sell all sorts of hand made things from local areas and also foreign countries to raise money and awareness against human and sex trafficking. not only do they sell lovely things, but it’s an amazing cause.

-who is someone that you admire?
this might seem cheesy but i would say both tyler joseph and josh dun. they are both incredible people and i look up to them in every way and admire the lives they live.

-what is your zodiac sign?
okay so like i don’t believe in horoscopes so i don’t fully understand them. but i think i’m a scorpio?? idk, from what i’ve heard about those peeps it would make sense.

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vaishnavi | written in star’s questions:

-why did you want to start a blog?
*throw back to when i found loren’s blog, let’s me lost, through the link in her pinterest*
after that, ^ i thought it would be really fun to start my own blog and see if i enjoyed it. turns out, i did and i do, so here i am :)

-what are some of your biggest inspirations?
i would say people i look up to and admire (aka josh and tyler + others). (it’s a long list).

-what’s your favorite genre of music?
i would have to say alternative. is that a genre? idek. soft music that gets you in your feels. under alternative is usually where i find those types of songs. otherwise pop.

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starling’s questions:

-which do you prefer: cats or dogs?
DOGS. i don’t especially like cats unless it’s my own, but i would love a cherish every single precious dog i meet if i had the opportunity.

-do you like k-pop?
i’ve actually never listened to it so i couldn’t tell ya haha

-when did you start this blog?
*goes and checks my about page cause i would never know without it*
MAY OF 2017

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tania | write owl’s questions:

-what is something you will NEVER do again?
i’m trying to think of something terrible or unbearable that i’ve done (heheh that rhymed). to be completely honest i sat here for like ten minutes and couldn’t think of anything specific so idk what to say. but there’s something in the back of my mind that i know gives me insane anxiety when i think about it but i can’t remember what it is at the moment. i’ll just say i probably won’t ever throw a sippy cup at my brother’s face and split his lip open again.

-among your friends and family, what are you famous for?
these are great questions, dang.
being loud. i’m a very loud person whether that be pertaining to my voice or my personality.

-if you were the last human on earth, what would you do?
probably cry a lot first of all because being alone scares me a lot. but i would probably raid chick-fil-a and move everything i own or stole into it and just live there.

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gaby | quaint and darling’s questions:

-iced coffee or tea?
again i kinda like both, but if ice coffee is in the picture, i’d definitely go with that. i could drink ice coffee all day every day.

-what’s your favorite animal?
probably dog. they’re just so cute :)

-what’s your favorite movie?
at the moment, probably spiderman homecoming because TOM HOLLAND AM I RIGHT OR AM I RIGHT??? it changes a lot though.

-unicorn or dragon?
heckin dragon. i’ve wanted my own since how to train your dragons. like can someone make that happen for me please and thank you.

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allison | a farm girl’s life’s questions:

-what is one of your pet peeves?
when i’m trying to talk to someone about something serious and they either keep making jokes or keep interrupting you about stupid stuff even though they keep saying “go ahead” or “keep going”

-what’s your favorite hymn?
okay tbh we sing them in church sometimes but i don’t know the names of any of them soooooo…

-what’s your favorite eye/hair/skin combo?
like on a person?? um…tan skin, dark or brown hair and either blue or brown eyes.

-if you could only eat one food group for two days, which one would you choose?
fruits fruits fruits. i know vedgetables are also included but like nahhhh.

-do you think of days of the week or shapes as being certain colors?
oh wow interesting question. i actually dont. whenever i think about things in my mind, i picture the word. like is spell it out in my head and think of that.

-town or country?
probably town, tbh. or city.

-what’s one unpopular belief or opinion you have?
vaping/smoking/juuling isn’t cool or fun or impressive. it’s actually gross and everyone should stop right now, please and thank you.

-the classic: if you could only take three things to a desert island, what would they be and why?
a whole chick-fil-a building with all the food and stuff, probably my best friend, and a boat.

-how long does it usually take you to fall asleep?
oh not long at all. i’m pretty sure i fall asleep wayyyy faster than the average person. i crash, man.

-do you prefer your marshmallows straight out of the package, lightly warmed, perfectly toasted, or burnt to a crisp?
maybe this could count as an unpopular opinion, but i actually don’t like marshmallows. i can have like one on a s’more and that’s enough for me. but if i had to choose, i would say perfectly toasted.

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hazel | hey, it’s hazel’s questions:

-what’s your favorite ice cream flavor?
mint oreo :D secondary would be vanilla because you can put almost anything on it.

-where do you love to shop the most?
goodwill, H&M, and amazon :)

-what’s the weirdest food you’ve eaten?
i’ve had squid. i think there’s a lot more but that’s the one i know off the top of my head.

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catharine | a little bit of runion’s question:

-if you could live in one book, what would it be and why?
harry potter. i feel like it’s basic to say you want to go to hogwarts after reading the books, but seriously i do. especially after going to universal studios. it was crazy.

and that’s all :) yes, i realize the only pictures were fish a budgies, but at least they were cute??

i won’t rant about reaching 200 followers or anything, but i will say thank you, and i appreciate all of you so much :) this blog is kinda crazy and messy, so it kinda shocks me every time i think of having on follower, but thank you.

i can’t promise i’ll blog much, but i can promise i’ll try my hardest.

i love you all :)) have a good day.



« huji app review/pictures »

heyo folks! :D i hope school has been going alright lately. it’s been a little weird for me lately but i’m keeping up with everything so i’m stress free at the end of each day.

i’m here with another app review! i really enjoyed doing my last one and decided to do another one with one of my favorite apps :)


huji is an app that turns your pictures into 1990’s film like a disposable camera, and even adds cute effects like a small date in the corner and light effects.

i saw people posting pictures from huji all over instagram and wasn’t sure what app it was until one of my friends told me when i was at a camp retreat. i really enojoyed using it that weekend with my friends and having super cute pictures come out for results :)

i’m going to go through the pros and cons of this app and then post some pictures from my gallery.

– huji always has some SUPER cute results and gives your pictures a little something extra
– you can thankfully save the pictures to your camera role so you don’t have you go into the app for them every time
– the app is layed out well and easy to navigate
– the light effects added to the pictures makes them very pretty and unique

– huji kills your battery FAST. staying on the app for even a short amount of time will drop your percentage very fast. this is unfortunate in situations where you’re away from home or traveling without a way to charge your phone but still wanting to take pictures
– you can’t touch the screen to use color correction on huji. it’s hard to focus the camera on very bright things
– the light effects are completely random and can sometimes cover up your photos. also color filters vary depending on the lighting
– it’s very hard to edit pictures taken on huji anymore than they already are. trying to change them after using this app makes them look very over-edited very easily


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i feel like my pros and cons made this app look kinda bad, but overall i really do enjoy using it! i tend to use my regular camera more often due to the fact i can edit them easier without them looking crazy edited, but huji does add some super cool effects and filters to pictures. you never know how huji will make something look until you try it out :)

let's chat!

do you have huji? what do you think of the app? what apps would you like to see me do reviews on in the future?

off topic from this post, today was 9/11 and i want to make it known my heart goes out to everyone who was personally effected by the devastating event over the past years, especially today and every day.

i hope you all have an amazing rest of the week. remember the God you serve and the One within you is greater than anything you experience.



« ultimately »


ultimately i don’t understand a thing. i try to do the best i can, i know you try to do the same.

we’re just so bound to make mistakes. you could call it deposition.

i apologize for all your tears, i wish i could be different.

but i’m still growing up into the one you can call your love.

i don’t know if i’ll ever be enough. i’m throwing in my chips, i guess i tend to push my luck.

and ultimately i believe we’ll be okay. it’s so cliché to say these things, but repetition is key.

i think i’m better when i’m with you, but i worry when you’re gone. i think i need to learn to love myself; i must learn to be strong.

so for now…we’ll say goodbye although it pains me in my heart. your words they come to me in memories. they sing to me like songs.

it won’t be long until i’m here. soon i’ll make my arrival under shady trees, a quiet street. the roads that i have traveled.

ultimately it’s a beautiful thing. like flowers blooming in a lonely field, the petals drift through crossing winds.

they find their way to river streams. that scent the water beautifully.

it takes me back to you.

khai dreams

« motivation + tips to get you through the new school year »

and so…summer has ended. but i have returned! my posting schedule got out of whack just as i expected. but that’s alright. now that the pool is closing and i’ll have more time at home, hopefully i can start posting more often now.

before i get into this post, i’m going to start with a couple life updates:

1. musical just started three weeks ago and i’m so excited! the comedy we’re doing is so amazing and it’s gonna be lots of fun. we had auditions this last saturday and the cast list was sent out that night at 11:00 and…..I GOT THE LEAD ROLE I WANTED!! i didn’t think i had any chance at all, and i flipped out when i saw my name! we’re doing double casting like we did last year so there’s another girl playing my part with me on alternating nights, but i’m so excited!

2. WHILE I WAS THINKING OF UPDATES I DECIDED TO CHECK MY FOLLOWER COUNT AND I JUST REALIZED WE PASSED 200!?!??!?!?!??! oh my goodness, thank you all so much!! it means the world to me you have no idea! (now i’ve gotta write a 200 follwer post…)

that’s actually all the updates i can think about right now, so i’m just gonna get into the post ;)

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we dread school. all of us. after the high and freedom of summer, we get stuck in the same building every day, with the same people. the only up is our friends, but even then there’s drama and negative energy no matter where you go. homework and stress pile up, and it’s hard to stay motivated for the long nine to ten months.

we all need help getting through the school year one way or another. i’m here with some motivation and tips that can hopefully help even in small ways to kick off the year.

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grades: after tests and quizzes, when grades and report cards come back, it’s SO easy to let our grades define us. our intelligence, our worth. you. can’t. do. this.
it’s very important to remember that everyone has different IQ’s. along with that, everyone has different talents. one bad grade doesn’t mean you’re stupid. it means that’s not your strongest subject. don’t let bad grades get you down this year, help them motivate you to work even harder and try your best in everything you do.

friends: going into school, whether you’re a freshman or even a senior, it can be very hard to fit in going into a new school year. finding friends and friend groups can be very challenging and you can end up feeling very lonely.
what you need to think about is the fact that it’s nothing about you making it difficult if it is. people change too. maybe your best friend from second grade suddenly starts hanging out with new people. it’s not your fault, it’s them changing and making their own decisions. now is your time to be yourself too and reach out to new people. be patient too. looking for friends desperately can get you mixed up with the wrong people. wait for God to bring the right friends to you, and then you’ll know they’re right for you ;)

you: there’s so many different styles and trends every year that everyone involves themselves with. everyone starts to believe you need to get into these to be “cool.” to be completely honest, this is the world’s ideas of cool, and getting involved in them can lead to trouble.
going into the school year, remember you’re unique from everyone else, and you don’t need to dress or act a certain way to fit in. be yourself and show everyone your definition of cool. that way you’ll fit in in all the right ways. and if you don’t, then you’ll stand out in all the right ways :)

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schedules and routines: going into the school year, it’s insanely important to develop a schedule and routine and STICK TO IT. repetitiveness will help you stay calm and keep your stress levels down throughout the year. it’ll bring familiarity when things start to get crazy. it can be as easy as a daily list of things to do before and after school. example:

6:00: brush teeth
6:10: makeup
6:45: breakfast/devotionals
7:25: school

   lists like this will help you stay on track with what needs to get done every morning and evening without getting distracted. it’ll also help stress levels stay low.

HOMEWORK: many times when you get home from school, the main thing everyone wants to do is curl up in bed on their phone until dinner and get to their homework “when they get the chance” or “later.” this can lead to staying up very late to get last minute assignments in and projects done. the lack of sleep then received can lead to difficulty concentrating the following days and more built up stress throughout the week.
my tip would be: when you get home from school, power down your phone and work hard on all your homework BEFORE DINNER. once dinner is finished, if all your homework is done for the next day, then you have plenty of time to be on your phone or play video games or whatever else.

preparation: homework goes along with this, but after dinner is finished and homework is completed, before being lazy for the rest of the night, a really good thing to do is prepare for the next day. this can mean picking out an outfit or repacking your backpack. getting everything done for that day and also the next day will make you feel put together and relaxed. then you have no stress or worry when you go into free time.

sleep: this has got to be one of the single most important tips to a successful school year. REST IS SO VERY IMPORTANT. it also prepares you for the next day! staying up late doing homework or on your phone means very few hours of sleep considering the time you need to wake up in the morning as well.
one very key thing to do is put your phone away by 9:00. i’ve been trying to do this for weeks and i still can’t! but your body and grades will thank you for putting it away early. after it’s powered down, try reading a book or doing devotionals before you sleep. try and be done by around 10:00, 11:00 at the latest. you’ll notice big changes in not only your work, but also your attitude going into school everyday.

weekends: after the week has FINALLY ended, everyone wants a break from school and work and they wanna have fun with friends. that’s totally fine to do, AND ALSO IMPORTANT. having breaks from work is very important when it comes to preforming well in school.
BUT. before dropping everything to be with friends, make sure you have EVERYTHING done for the next week. this goes back to the homework. don’t put it off to go bowling and tell yourself you’ll do it sunday night. next thing you know, you’ll be watching netflix or on your phone telling yourself it’s still the weekend or you’ll be up until 3 am trying to pull everything together.
challenge yourself to get everything for the next week done before sunday and before you do anything with friends. if getting it done in one day isn’t possible, then use sunday too. and if getting certain things done takes even longer, don’t hang out with friends until your caught up with everything. this will challenge you to work harder and concentrate more, which leads to better grades. you’ll also be able to enjoy yourself more when you’re with friends when you’re not worrying about everything that needs to be done at home.

that’s all i have for now! hopefully these tips were helpful to you all even in small ways!

for me personally, i have a very short attention span and i also hate school with a passion. procrastination comes very easily for me, so it’s very easy for me to neglect my work and get behind on everything and i get extremely stressed out.
i’m going to challenge myself beyond my limits this year to work my hardest the entire year even when i want to quit, and i encourage you all to do the same.

we can do this :) stay happy, stay brilliant. i love you all.